Not so good news

I have been dreading coming back here to announce that our baby died. At my 10 week ultrasound they discovered "she" had no heartbeat and died at 6 weeks. What a week it's been! My only comfort is hugging my daughter Jada, she is my rock. She keeps me on my toes that's for sure. She had a seizure Wednesday night (her first and I hope her only) and went for her first ambulance ride. She's fine but boy did she scare the pants off her mom and dad!!!! Her constant kisses and hugs are a reminder that maybe god isn't trying to punish me but trying to remind me of just how much love one child can give. And so with that I have to take a step away from the idea of having 2 children here on earth with me and be happy and grateful for the little girl who drives me crazy, makes me want to pull my hair out at times but I wouldn't change her.
So here is a poem that I found posted on a forum that I thought would pretty much sum up my thoughts and feelings on the loss of baby Zoe Skye

The Cord

We are connected,
My child & I, by
An invisible cord
Not seen by the eye.

It's not like the cord
That connects us 'til birth
This cord can't be seen
By any on Earth.

This cord does its work
Right from the start.
It binds us together
Attached to my heart.

I know that it's there
Though no one can see
The invisible cord
From my child to me.

The strength of this cord
Is hard to describe.
It can't be destroyed
It can't be denied.

It's stronger than any cord
Man could create
It withstands the test
Can hold any weight.

And though you are gone,
Though you're not here with me,
The cord is still there
But no one can see.

It pulls at my heart
I am so bruised - I am sore,
But this cord is my lifeline
As never before.

I am thankful that God
Connects us this way
A parent & child
Death can't take it away.

-PEG-